i do wonder if there's ppl still visits this page. its like 1 yr since my last post. lmao

this is a great song with a great tune to cheer you up on a gloomy day.

well, im seriously having serious headache about serious stuffs that will change my serious life throughout my entire serious journey through serious time ahead. okay, enough serious now. its a long story so im gonna tell you bits by bits. lol

im actually graduating by July 2008, which is in another 3 more months, if i do pass all subjects, which i really wanna pass all and just graduate. i dont ask much, just wanna get done with my studies. well, i should be recieving my results on the 13th of july.

and im already in the midst of a plan which cannot be tampered or failed. im planning to go to Melbourne to work once i graduate. WOW!! yea WOW!! but the problem is, my ticket is 14th and my results is on the 13th. i do not have much time. dats not the main problem, the problem of getting a job is the main headache im having. I NEED A JOB BADLY! a job which is in Melbourne and an employer whom is kind enuff to get me a working VISA!!

im actually felt keberatan to leave my family as well as my friends behind, but its for my future. i really wanna go over and gain some experience, besides of coz the main reason is to be with the one i love...

im actually goin over on a tight budget, dat means i need to have a job at least. but visitor visa doesnt permit me to work. arghhhhhhhh.. so i have to get a job offer at least when im here. it would be so troublesome for me to look for it there. so pls pls pls pls, if anyone does have any contacts that would land me a job in Melbourne in July, pls do contact me. thanks..

This is a great and must watch movie. if it ever comes out in the cinema la of coz. Coz i watched it from the dvd.

anyway, the movie is a love story where it involves an Irishman Gerry Kennedy and Holly, are a happily married couple living in Manhattan. Except Holly wants a larger apartment for when they decide to have a baby. Gerry wants a baby now, and after they fight one night about this, they make up and Gerry makes her laugh.

Gerry dies of a brain tumor, and Holly is devastated. The grieving young widow and her friends begin to periodically receive letters written by Gerry while he was alive, each containing a task for Holly to complete, intended to ease her out of her grief and transition her into a new life.

One "task" is for Holly and her two friends to go on holiday in Ireland, where the couple first met. On this trip, she hooks up with a singer from a local pub who ends up being one of Gerry's old friends.While she is in Ireland she visits Gerry's parents and visits the spot where the couple first met, and in the process, finds out that she can move on and live life.

At the end of the film it is revealed to Holly and the viewer that when Gerry knew he was going to die he wrote the letters and gave them to Holly's mother, and that he made her promise to send them one by one to Holly.

The story is so shweeeeet and almost made me cried. but its seriously one touching love story. try to get hold of the dvd, wont tell you where to get it though. =)

9.5/10 - SERIOUS!!!





till then.....

de·ci·sion /dɪˈsɪʒən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[di-sizh-uhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

-	the act or process of deciding; determination, as of a question or doubt, by making a judgment

life is full of decisions to make. whether it is easy or hard decisions, one just have to make that stoooopid decision. the outcome of that decision is either good or bad. so?

bad decision means bad outcome, good decision is what everyone wants. but in decision, comes a new thing called 'Risk'.



risk /rɪsk/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[risk] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

-	exposure to the chance of injury or loss; a hazard or dangerous chance: It's not worth the risk.

we have so many risk from the decisions that we're gonna make. 'What if's'. there are so many what if's. what if the decision that we made turn out to be bad. what will happen.



after risk, then there's 'Chain Reaction'. Chain Reaction is a series of events in which each event is the result of the one preceding and the cause of the one following.

things that you do will suddenly come out with 'sub-topics' if get what i mean. everything you do has something going on after that. so why we have to make decisions?



what the fuck i'm talking bout??! i tink im entering mid-life crisis. but isnt it a bit too young for me to be entering that? wtf.

been to alot of pressure and stressed out with decisions lately. my mind juz cant stop thinking bout the risk, chain reaction from the decision that i have to make. i just hate being in such situation. i wanna chill, relax, and me, myself and i, where i'm a 'a-step-at-a-time' person. i can't stop telling myself i'm a future-looking person when i can't.

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS!

guess its either im gonna have a tough 2nd half of the year, or im gonna enjoy it. really have to pray hard for my future. i know i need to....





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