de·ci·sion /dɪˈsɪʒən/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[di-sizh-uhn] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

-	the act or process of deciding; determination, as of a question or doubt, by making a judgment

life is full of decisions to make. whether it is easy or hard decisions, one just have to make that stoooopid decision. the outcome of that decision is either good or bad. so?

bad decision means bad outcome, good decision is what everyone wants. but in decision, comes a new thing called 'Risk'.



risk /rɪsk/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[risk] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation –noun

-	exposure to the chance of injury or loss; a hazard or dangerous chance: It's not worth the risk.

we have so many risk from the decisions that we're gonna make. 'What if's'. there are so many what if's. what if the decision that we made turn out to be bad. what will happen.



after risk, then there's 'Chain Reaction'. Chain Reaction is a series of events in which each event is the result of the one preceding and the cause of the one following.

things that you do will suddenly come out with 'sub-topics' if get what i mean. everything you do has something going on after that. so why we have to make decisions?



what the fuck i'm talking bout??! i tink im entering mid-life crisis. but isnt it a bit too young for me to be entering that? wtf.

been to alot of pressure and stressed out with decisions lately. my mind juz cant stop thinking bout the risk, chain reaction from the decision that i have to make. i just hate being in such situation. i wanna chill, relax, and me, myself and i, where i'm a 'a-step-at-a-time' person. i can't stop telling myself i'm a future-looking person when i can't.

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS!

guess its either im gonna have a tough 2nd half of the year, or im gonna enjoy it. really have to pray hard for my future. i know i need to....





till then...

well, this will be my 22nd chinese new year, not 23rd coz i'm not out yet from mommas tummy. lol. as usual celebrate every year in ipoh wif family and relatives. but somehow this year's a bit different.

firstly, this years reunion dinner is at a restaurant. normally its at home and mom's gonna cook. but this year parents decided to eat out. dun let me mention to you bout the restaurant. i was so pissed. due to the amount of flys flying around the table! and its air conditioned restaurant. and its packed. i dunno how ppl can survive eating in such place. it seriously turned off my appetite and was so pissed and have the intention to scold the owner. its like so wtf. even the yeesang which was wrapped wif plastic, have fly inside. its like so wtf. i told my parents i will never eat there again. wtf

secondly, is the schedule. normally we'll be at home on the first day, but this year we went out on first day and stayed the second day. but the places we go is the same la.

thirdly, i never knew i got so many distant cousins. this is becoz i never seen any of them before due to they migrated to somewhere else. this year, almost everyone came back from my mom's side of family. all the Leongs. and i met alot of aunties dat are so so so so so so TALKATIVE. they juz cant stop talking. yapppppppppppppppppping all day long. my ears can bleed ok??! waaaa seriously kenot tahan..

well, goin back tmr, or should i say later today at noon, and goin for visitation to my in-laws and then dinner wif them. never had dat before, not even last year. thats why this year is a bit different for me.

and dun remind me bout my exam which is on next tuesday. wut a party pooper. dah la chinese new year happy happy all. gotto study pulak. so wtf. and let me remind you, i kenot fail!! if not cant grad. happy betul kan!

oh ya, gimme more bak kua.. i ate 4 packs d. lol. thanks..






till then..